Blew it !!!

[Sissy]

Superbowl party at Mom's - I ate so many cookies throughout the night. I wish I dumped - why don't I dump when I eat sugar? I thought I was supposed to dump?? I feel like a PIG!!!! I've been up since 3:30 kicking myself for eating so much!!! I feel miserable - maybe that's my punishment for last night. In the past(pre-surg)it wouldn't even bother me to pig out. I was just hoping there would be a physical restriction to my old ways!!
By the way - no fault of yours Mom - my bad choices!!! cry 2

[Regina]

Sometimes certain things we won't dump. Then there are those that kill us. I found it depends on what the product is. Example I can eat about two cookies maybe even three and be fine but give me ice cream and I am done.

It also depends on how you ate them. Did you eat them all one after the other or were they spaced apart?

What ever you did yesterday put it behind you and don't beat yourself up over a slip now and then. We are all human and we all make eras and mistakes.

[arlene]

Oh well, pull up yur big girl panties and keep on marching to the beat. p.s. I didn't see you,Sissy!!

[elaine]

Sissy,

We are all human, you ate them, ate being a past tense word.......you didnt dump, okay, does not mean if you eat them again you wont. i have eaten things, the next day, tried the same things, and dumped like mad. Dont beat yourself up, you feel bad for doing it, simply dont do it again. its done, get pasted it and move foward. you are doing marvelous, dont kick yourself for being human (remember, we have a tool to help us, but we will always be fat in our minds, you can control your mind.......)you already made the change, so take it by the horns and stay away from those cookies.

~`elaine

[Anita]

Ok folks,

It's been a looong time & I'm in the middle of a few major transitions, which is good. I've just returned on my trip w/my 2 girls to Rocking Horse Dude Ranch in upstate. WHAT A BALL!!!! I took part in all the activities as usual. Except this time, while we went snow tubing, my butt went through the tube & hit the ground!!! Where as...compared to 2 years ago, I was lucky enough to balance on top of the tube without falling off at the smallest bump! Then, some man plowed into me from behind & I landed on my tail bone, OUCH!!! I thought I had a date, but he was there w/his wife & wasn't my type. :) Only then at that moment did I wish I had the extra "padding". hahahaha.

The nice thing was that I bumped into 3 of the same families that also go yearly for Valentine's w/their kids & one lady said that she recognized my girls but didn't recognize me at all. What a compliment!!! Her mom is very heavy & wanted to know how I lost all the weight. Boy, was I happy to let them in on my success!!!

On top of that, the food flowed for breakfast, lunch & dinner. My biggest fear was eating too fast & too much & getting sick & spoiling the trip for my girls. Well, I know it was wasteful but, I ate a salad before every meal, 1/2 of my appetizers & 1/4 of my supper. One night I did have a peice of peach pie, but most of my desserts were fresh strawberries & slices of watermelon, cantaloupe or honeydew. I did have a few slices of bacon or a sausage w/hot maple syrup for breakfast w/my fruit.

I was also amazed that I was able to go through the ball pit obstacle course w/the girls. Which is something I couldn't do no matter how hard I tried in the past.

As of today, I'm officially a comfortable size 12 (I think a 10 if I suck my gut in & don't sit down). It's nice to be able to donate all my new size 14's that I wore for a short time. And, it's nice to look at myself in a mirror again & feeling good about myself.

See you all at the meeting!

Cheers!
Anita